Today, I came to the realisation that I don't stress enough. I don't know if that's a good or bad thing but I'm pretty sure I'm like this now because I used up all the stress that I could in high school. Like just the other day I had an assignment due at 11:59PM and I literally submitted it at 11:56PM. I didn't even consider what could have happened if my internet or laptop had crashed.
A lot of the times I'd post things like 'omg report due tomorrow and I haven't started #ugh!!' and that'll be a split second of stress and then I'll be over it. I just can't make myself worry about things enough. Sometimes, I feel like I don't know how to express my feelings enough and I'm not sure if that's good for me. I have friends who would go on and on about how they're feeling about their uni life or workload, their jobs and even other people and all I do is listen. I don't contribute much in terms of my feelings. I guess I'm more of a listener than a talker but honestly, I prefer it that way.
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Thursday, May 8, 2014
Friday, May 2, 2014
don't need y'all
You know what I don't get? Why people spread rumours. Especially rumours that are so outrageously false that as soon as the subject of the rumours hears it, they laugh. I'll admit I've heard and passed on some rumours back in high school but never have I stooped so low that I've made up rumours about someone else.
I wanted year 12 to be my best and happiest year of high school so that I could look back and remember the times I've had there. Instead, things happened and that contributed to it being a not so good year. I had rumours spread about me that involved my really personal life and obviously I was devastated. I didn't want to confront anyone about them because I didn't know what I would say. Instead, I chose to stay quiet and even resorted to talking to less people. I became so scared of talking to others in case they would silently judge me based on the rumours. I hated it. I just wanted to know who started the rumours so I could ask them why.
Eventually after graduating high school, I put everything behind me and embraced the space I had from everyone I knew. I was glad to get away from all that dirty talk and it's been fine. I'd assumed everyone stopped talking about the rumours because it was old news but recently, I heard about some other versions of the rumours from back in high school. And let me just say, they are fucking ridiculous. They were so stupid that I didn't care. In fact, I laughed at them. If people want to talk, then talk. I'm living the yoli (hi jess) life now.
I wanted year 12 to be my best and happiest year of high school so that I could look back and remember the times I've had there. Instead, things happened and that contributed to it being a not so good year. I had rumours spread about me that involved my really personal life and obviously I was devastated. I didn't want to confront anyone about them because I didn't know what I would say. Instead, I chose to stay quiet and even resorted to talking to less people. I became so scared of talking to others in case they would silently judge me based on the rumours. I hated it. I just wanted to know who started the rumours so I could ask them why.
Eventually after graduating high school, I put everything behind me and embraced the space I had from everyone I knew. I was glad to get away from all that dirty talk and it's been fine. I'd assumed everyone stopped talking about the rumours because it was old news but recently, I heard about some other versions of the rumours from back in high school. And let me just say, they are fucking ridiculous. They were so stupid that I didn't care. In fact, I laughed at them. If people want to talk, then talk. I'm living the yoli (hi jess) life now.
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